who people think i am, compare to who i really am and who I want to be.

I feel like people has create a certain picture of me and expect me to behave and act in a certain way, then when I don’t fit into this their idea of me, they think things don’t add up.

I’ve noticed a lot of changes in me compare to the past year and it’s totally fine. Change is a necessity. Sometimes for better, sometimes for worse.

To begin, I will start with “WHO PEOPLE THINK I AM” people think I live my life thinking I am the most ambitious lady around. They think I have my life in order and have my future planned out.

People think I more than confident. Constantly been told I am good looking, smart and very confident kind of made me conceited.

My close people always say I act like I know it all and barely want to listen to corrections without getting defensive.

What you don’t know is that I am NOT The most confident or the most ambitious. The only reason people think so is because, I used to hang around people who were NOT and it made me look good. Yes, I will describe myself as ambitious and would give it anything it takes to achieve what I want. But, take me to a different environment with people who are just as ambitious, smart and confident and I might just crumble.!

WHO I AM: I am a young lady from a family of 8 who does not have her life all figured out. I am very shy and sometimes have low confidence and try hide it by been outspoken and friendly. I am altruistic but can also be selfish. I enjoy cooking and sometimes baking. I can be stupid which always end up in me being used and taken advantage off. I find it hard to forgive once my kindness as being taken for weakness and I never forget those who has wronged me. I don’t get hurt by the same person twice. I find it hard to trust! How does one learn to trust after all the disloyalty they’ve experienced? I enjoy reading and I take pride in showing supports to others. I am very passionate about my future and goals. I try my possible best to be a good decent person but certain traits occasionally gets in the way.

WHO I WANT TO BE: . I want to live a life that glorifies God. I want to be an independent woman who has her own. I want to be happy and healthy. I want my family and close friends to be happy and I want to see them doing good in life. I don’t want to live paycheck by paycheck, I want to escape the rat race. I want to be around the most loving people. I want to be around people I enjoy their company in real life, people I fit in with. I want to one day have kids and create a loving family that will love God and glorify him. I want to build a healthy relationship, where I love and allow myself to be loved.

Kenny’s Takeaway Quote

“Don’t judge a book by it’s cover” ~ George Eliot

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