After a well thought through decision, I have decided to take a break from blogging. Running errands, keeping up with friends, and everyday routine while juggling work all seems to be a bit too much and making it hard for me to recharge when I need it the most.

I have noticed myself lacking motivation to even write a blog post not to talk of uploading it. and when I eventually do, I feel like it was forced and barely want to have it published. I am always a go-to person when it comes to organising and having things on track and ready for delivery. But I just can no longer muster the motivation. 

I don’t want to get to the point where blogging starts to feel like a burden. 

I believe it is time for me to take time back and re-set my priorities. Therefore, I have decided to take 2 weeks break from blogging, writing, and updating social media in regards to anything that has to do with kennysdiary. 

Ps: all books delivery will still be taken. Just order directly from my website (kennysdiary) and your order will be posted ASAP. 

Thank you so much lovelies! I really appreciate the love, support and what not. However, it is time for me to step back and get my mind right. I promise to be back to writing, blogging, and reading with the most positive mindset. 

Yours sincerely,

Kenny

Xx 

Lately, life has been feeling chaotic. One minute you feel like the happiest person alive and the next it feels like you don’t even know who you are. You see yourself spending more and more time by yourself, going solo for things, and not wanting anyone to bother or disturb you. I can sit here and type to you that life has been all roses and flowers. But, it hasn’t. I will be lying to you and if the world lies to you, you cannot lie to yourself. I came into the new year with so much positivity, but I guess its life and it has a way of showing itself. In the most unexpected time as well. 

Mental health journey 

I have always prioritised my mental health first. However, lately, my mental health seems to be having its own moments. I suddenly started feeling the weight of it all again. Having mental breakdowns and emotional moments. It’s like your body is constantly living in a flight or fight mode. Due to these reasons, I have decided to start rewarding myself with wellness retreats, meditating, moving my body regularly and eat healthy. 

Being alone

I have spent most of my time this year alone and staying to myself. I feel like I am misunderstood and the more I try getting close to people the more I subconsciously trigger something in them that I am totally not aware off. this, has made me come to the hard decision that you know what, I might as well spend time alone and be by myself rather than ruin relationships with people I genuinely like. I mean, it is easier to love people from far than be overly close with them. I have learnt how to be a lone without being lonely. So, it does not bother me really. 

Indecisive

Been indecisive is another thing I have been struggling with now. I can tell you it is a horrible place to be. Indecision keeps you stuck, and sometimes it will keep you stuck forever. I have been wanting change in my life, career, moving house, and travelling. However, the fear of making the wrong decision has been holding me back. I see myself as someone who goes for what she wants regardless of the consequences. But I am taking the necessary steps to ensure I do not get stuck in this mindset. 

With this, I will be taking a break from life and just take time to recharge. This, will be elaborated in more details in my blog post next week. 

If you are struggling with where you are in life now, or maybe things aren’t going as you had expected, I promise you, you are not alone. Remember, no one has it together and do not get carried away with people controlled online content. 

Hey lovelies, welcome to a new week of Kennydiary!

I visited a cafe in London few weeks ago and i really loved it. So, I will like to share a review with you lot because why not?? Although, I like to gate-keep places I enjoyed in other to prevent it from been overcrowded lol. However, this is a very lovely place that I think everyone, my girly girls especially, will love to visit.

Feya cafe is located in about three different locations around London. I visited the one in James Street Marylebone.

Feya cafe is a perfect place for afternoon tea or dessert. I went there on a afternoon for coffee with a friend. We had waffles that was well served, warm, soft and presentable. I’ve had a lot of waffles before, so, I can say with not hesitation that this was the best one I’ve ever tried. It’s filling and very worth it.

The staff were so accommodating, gave use a spot without reservation. Made sure we had enough time to pick what we wanted from the menu and taking back our order with no hassle .

The ambiance at feya is so lovely, the interior decoration is very chic and great. If you are a girly girl who loves pink interior deco and a lady like environment, I will definitely recommend you visiting this restaurant. The whole vibe was just very warm and friendly.

Although, it is a bit pricey, but I can assure you it is worth every penny and you will be getting value for money.

With all that being said, one thing I didn’t like about this place was the toilet. To be honest it is enough to put anyone off from ever visiting again. However, their good service and food made me had a rethink about the place. So overall, it’s a nice place for afternoon tea or dessert and nothing more.

Being consistent is something I have always struggled with. I am struggling today and maybe you might be able to relate with me too.

I have always written blog post everyday Thursday, week after week, month after month and year after year. But today, I feel like giving up. today I am struggling. Today, I didn’t feel like picking my laptop up to write. Today, I didn’t feel like sticking to any routine. It is my off day and I just want to be and stay in bed. Today, I feel like giving up.

However, below are the things I tried to remind myself whenever I feel like giving up.

• Consider your thought 

The human mind is a suggestion engine. Every thought you have should be seen as a suggestion and not an order. For example, right now my mind is telling me that I am too tired and cannot be asked to go visit my niece. This is my mind suggesting that I give up. if I take a moment, I will also discover new suggestions. Like, I will feel good knowing that I was able to get something done even at my lowest. I will feel good knowing that I can stick to a schedule and the identity I am building.

These suggestions are not order. They are just options, and you have the power to choose which option to follow.

• Discomfort Is Temporary 

Feeling discomfort is temporary. Any habit can be over quickly. That gym workout will be finished and over in an hour or two. That report will be finished by the deadline you give yourself. The article you need to have up will be finished in just a moment.

Maintain perspective. Your life is good, and discomfort is temporary. Let your moment of discomfort strengthen you.

• No regret 

I have never found myself feeling worse or bad after the hard work has been done. Although, there has been days I find it so hard to even start, but the feeling once I get it done is worth finishing. Sometimes, all you need is the courage to show up and get the job done.

Anyone can want a gold medal, only few are willing to train like an Olympian.

• This is life

Really and truly, what is life without the daily battles and the little decisions we need to make regarding showing up and giving up? this moment is your life. Spend it doing something that will make you proud.

Let the word decides

So, what do I do when I feel like giving up? I show up like a badass and get it done anyways! Because that is what winners DO.

Do I always show up looking my best? Absolutely no. But it is not about judging how good or bad I am. It’s about doing the job and letting the world decide and see the result.